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♥ Wednesday, January 26, 2005

hmmp wat a fan day...aiyo 2day really fan...all bcos my tat dad's friend la...he ah save $$$ even more xiao den my dad...he can come over my house taking tis n tat w/o paid or feel bad 1 leh...
den 2day we loss his job come over telling me his story so long winder...he very e do do do...den he asked me 2 let him use net...wah lau nt i dun wanna let him use ah...is every time he come over take tin lyk free, i scare later i let him use once den he will non stp lol..den tat time who is going paid 4 me e bill ah???tat time i will hv to cry lyk hell ah...as now i cant find any job to wk,if by march still cant find any i will hav to go back mac lol...really tired of wking at there...n i really hate myself, my luck just so bad cant find job n so many unhappy tin keep happening on me....pls god may b u should just take me away la...dun make me suffer so much can???

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1/26/2005 10:52:00 PM

♥ Tuesday, January 25, 2005

*THIS MSG I WAS TAKEN FRM SZEY YUAN BLOG< JUST FIND IT VERY MEANINGFULL*

[Went to "Bishan Ting", the place where the deceased ppl's ashes are being placed. sorry, my english very bad. understand what im trying to say jiu hao.Today is my xiaojiu's 'ji4 ri4' (chinese one). It's been a year. Yet... i still feel the pain when i see his 'ling2 wei4'. People always say "time heals the wound". But... it takes a lot of time. The scar will always be there. Permanently.Went to his 3-room flat. His mailbox was packed with stacks of letters. Mainly from the power supply. His house was neat and... new. He had only stayed there for about 2 weeks before he dropped onto the living room's floor and left us all.I miss his jokes.I miss his singing.I miss his presence.Life is unpredictable.]

i dun no hw ur will feel abt life bt to me is a sad n happy...w/o close ppls around me,bt gt friend...thur dun no i can live hw long bt life still hv to go on when u happent any sad or happy tin...as sad tin wouldt happent every days,so as e happy time...care abt wat u hav now,dun tink too far as u wouldt noe wat will happent to u next...k la dun wanna say too much...

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1/25/2005 09:34:00 PM

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1/25/2005 09:17:00 PM

♥ Friday, January 21, 2005

Hmmp 2day i really moody...can say nt onli 2day la...is every day after 12th jan tat some tin happent...can not say is some tin,as is a very big n sad tin...tat i was left alone now lyk tat...

really hope e time can go back if i do take more effect 2 care 4 my mum n dad...care more abt their health asking them c doctor early den some of e tin wouldt happent liao...but just i m so heartless din take an effect to care 4 them...y i m lyk tat n i hate tat so wish tat it would be happening on me bt nt them...they r so gd person bt me leh,i nt alway very playful dun listen to them...even noe tat they sick i would worri tat much,onli noe enjoy my life..a person lyk me should nt live in e world...really thinking back if i make an effect to pei them more,tok more thur they r very nagging bt is bcos they care abt me,worri i would gt bad friend,worri abt my study,worri my health..bt yet they hav nt wait 4 me to grown work to earn $$$ 4 them to enjoy life,n just leave lyk tat...is very scarly of beening alone with no 1 of ur close ppls around...as now our age we onli take our friend as e more close ppls,bt time go when we will go differ way may nt keep in touch any more hw???so parent are still e most importion, and hav to thxfull 4 they been taking care of us when we down,sick,or fall...ofcos nt saying friend r nt importion,n i hav to thxfull 4 all my friend who been an wei n helping me 2 pass thur tis sad time..bt they cant alway pei me...they gt their own famliy problem,n their own tin to fan of...bt i really thx god 4 gving me tis few gd friend as i gt problem they alway around nt leaving me alone to feel sad...

but 2day is really moody as gt prayer on at my house...den i hav to come early to clearn up my place...therefore i stay over nite 1day b4..bt e feeling of 1 ppl at hm is very scarly 4 me...last time thur my dad alway back hm late bt at least i noe tat there gt 1 ppl will come back acc me...bt nt 2day, feeling e house is so quiter no longer hv my dad around to nag at me...telling me rest early dun tried myself..no 1 will cook 4 me at nite when i m feeling hungry...and when after finish praying all e ppls has left,leaving me alone face e my house 4 wall think back hw my dad has be alone after my mum left...i really dun no hw he go thur...as his kid i dun offent come back vist him...when he is sick,no one is there taking care of him...i really feeling very bad...

Who can tell me wat should do,now i gt to choose of closing down or go on with my dad e prayer...i dun lyk e prayer as i just find is over do every day n nite gt to pray,bt it my dad hard wk to built up...closing it down i lyk letting my dad down as his last wish is hope i can take over...bt taking over i would feel gd as i m doing some tin which i hate some more it would be 4 a life time n i m still so young...hw???and 1 can ans me,by asking my aunty they will say tis my house is my dad prayer which i hav to tink abt it they cant help...i m just a gal thur i 20yr old liao bt i really dunno...many ppls looking at my strong side,c me luff n strong bt inside i m just so weak as i grass it can break easy...every time went back hmno one i can tok to,grandma is old cant tel her 2 make her worri 4 me.,..tat y my friends alway say y i so quiter is nt i 1 just that at hm i dun hav any 1 to share problem since young with,so i become dun no hw to tell my friend abt my problem...tat y i very scare been left out by friend bt yet i would show or say it out...tat me,it some tin i really dun no or cant change myself...

tat will be all saying so much making me feeling better too...last of all is pls my friend thx 4 ur care n concern...if dun hav all ur help i tink i cant make it till 2day...

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1/21/2005 08:22:00 PM

♥ Monday, January 17, 2005

wat is life...life is really short...life is when u dun take note of the person,they will leave u very fast...is nt i wanna scare ur...but tat life...so pls care abt the person who are still around u...dun care they treat u bad or gd...bcos when u loss them u will regret abt it...so dun let it happent...even hw bad e person treat u,but if u still care 4 them try acc as much as u can...as u may c him health 2day,but tml he may just leave u...looking at he stp his last breath is more sad den ppls telling u tat he hav die...but at least i gt no regret as i hav pei him till him last min...thur looking he suffer so much den can go but he no longer hurt or pain thur i will hav to live all alone in this world liao...but they will alway b in my heart...tat i will remember them in my mind...

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1/17/2005 08:29:00 PM