Blog is like a dairy to me..a place to let me write all happy and unhappy thing here.. i know i a very negative person, therefore what i post normally is very negative feeling.. 5th oct 2011, another bad mood day. nothing make me unhappy it just a suddenly feeling. i hate the feeling of been alone, been left out, been etc.. but i know my bad point is not approach people on my own keep waiting for people to approach me..how can i change? no idea, maybe till the day i die still no change? i only know i getting from bad to worst, do not go mix with my current colleague, do not mix with my friend. i feel i am all alone, even i know they care.
i more wish of getting out of my life, say real i feel like going die. everyday have to face people, work, problem and etc.. i wish i am more daring enough to make change, if i am daring enough, but not sure i will choose to kill myself 1st of go change job 1st?!now i no longer say negative idea to friend, reason they have their problem no people can really care, or think for u and they cant decide for u too. so what for to share, it may end up quarrel only like last time happen between my friend. the world is turning everyday but my mind is not, i still staying in the pass i know. i am jealous, who i am jealous of i can tell u everyone. those people who more rich den me, those people who more clever den me, those people who got more friend den me and many more.
anyway i a person dare to post dare to admit my mistake, i dislike to quarrel till win. because everyone have a bad point, i have mine and i dare to say u have ur. therefore when u say me please think before u say mine bad point..
if there really any god around maybe i beg for a fast way to get out of this world, i know alot of people will be sad for me. but when time pass they soon or later will forget just like me, i feel i have forget how my parent are look like after 5yr++
end of my post, not many people have my this blog url. if u happen to read it just keep to urself do not say any thing to me. for those unknown u are welcome to read, and close after read. thanks and bye..
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♥ Friday, August 13, 2010
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♥ Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Recent Life
spending month, CNY is around the corner so i have be start buying thing since last year December. hopefully February i can stop the spending habit and do some saving. As this year planed to go a few place like Genting Highlands, Korean and maybe Japan if the days and time allow. this few days no big event, so only normal outing with dear. go out eat, watch movie and siting down chit chat. 16/01/2010 Saturday
went for a movie and slacking at orchard area, anyway that day the wind at ion is very strong make our hair so messy.lol.
- 2pm+ met up with dear at lido area. - 3pm+ watch the Spy Next Door, not very outstanding story but still worth watch it la.. - 6pm+ walk about ion and had xingwang at there for our dinner. - 8pm+ dear send me home and we sit around my house area. - 10pm+ dear go back home sweet home.
22/01/2010 Friday - 23/01/2010 Saturday
Reformat dear PC and went ice-skating.
- 5pm+ end work, go to dear house to put down our bags. - 7pm+ went to eat our dinner at sembawang area, the food is cheap, nice and the food is big portion loh..we also shop around the shop mall and slowly walk back to dear house. - 9pm+ back to dear house, try to solve his pc issue without reformat but fail. - 1am+ stay over night at dear house again. - 10am+ wake up, bath and did all the installation to dear PC. - 12pm+ went out to eat our late breakfast or early lunch and dear go cut hair for CNY. - 2pm+ went back to dear house, slacking thinking what to do next. end up dear took nap and me watching drama. - 4pm+ dear drive me home to put my stuff, and we go down to Leisure Park at Kallang... - 5pm+ dear feel hungry again, end up we had our early dinner at KFC. - 6pm+ reach Kallang but have to wait till 7.15pm then we can go in to ice-skate.. - 9pm+ end ice-skating, dear suggest to go marina barrage so we went to buy some finger food and make our way down. - 10pm+ reach there and find a place to sit, see people flying kite and blowing the wind.. - 12am+ dear send to back home sweet home.
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♥ Friday, January 15, 2010
Recent Life
08/01/2010 Friday
work and birthday celebration with dear.
- 5.20pm+ end work, accompany dear go home. - 6pm+ get my birthday gift, and make our way to jurong point. - 8pm+ reach there and planning what to eat, end up we go Icing Room to design my birthday cake 1st as they closing at 9pm. - 9pm+ after finish design cake, go to ichiban for our late dinner. - 10pm+ dear send me back to my house area, sing for me a birthday and sa bo me with the cake cream. - 11pm+ the end of my birthday, dear go home rest. still got bbq on the next following day. 08/01/2010 Saturday
BBQ party at ECP.
- 2pm+ met up with dear and colleague. - 3pm+ go eunos to take my BBQ and camping items. - 4pm+ reach ECP, set up the tent, BBQ items and wait for the food come. - 5pm+ set up BBQ fire to start BBQ ing the food. - 6pm+ play with the sea water and running about chit chating with my friends. - 8pm+ cut my birthday cake and also kana sa bo by friends. - 9pm+ open martel and drink some. - 1am+ get into tent get ready to sleep, but someone drunk till..... - 4am+ after taking care of my drunk dear finally can sleep. - 8am+ wake up and go get my breakfast and cycle abit. - 10am+ the rest all wake up, pack up the items. go back to eunos. - 12pm+ go back home sweet home to rest...
To all my friends: wanna thanks you guys for coming, have a wonderful night. It been a long time can like that play and chat around with you all. hope you guys did enjoy urself that night too.. take care, maybe could met up with your soon.
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1/15/2010 03:06:00 PM
♥ Thursday, January 07, 2010
Recent Life
“人生苦短几十年，要懂得那得拿起放得下”
31/12/2009 Thursday
Half day of work, and went count down with dear and his group of friend.
- 12pm+ have our company buffer. - 1pm+ luck draw, i won the 7th gift which is a FM-MW Clock Radio. - 3pm+ finish my OT, go home rest. - 7pm+ dear come my house met up. - 8pm+ go for dinner. - 11pm+ met up with dear friends and sit around singaporeflyer to watch firework. - 1am+ go over dear house to get his car send me home..=）
01/01/2010 ~ 07/01/2010
most of the days is go out with dear do some shopping for my BBQ items. spent around $400 - $500 for this time round, guess next year got to put a stop. but is aright ones in awhile have fun with friend is nice, if not everyone got its own life to busy with. will only able update more on coming monday 11/01/2010， so guys please wait patiently ah.
next is found some thing interesting online. below is the photos effect program used online.is fun, but then there is not alot of choice, still is better then noting right. haha
last will be my 2010 New Year Resolutions
1. Love myself more, stay happy dun always feel sad over small little thing. also grateful that got him around to accompany me now. 2. Save money to reach my next target, i have been work for almost going 2year still not yet reach. 3. maybe go study, but i know is a waste of money and time as i wouldn't use the skill.lol.but there a chinese words call 活到老学到老, so learn some thing also is making your brain moving. 4. go travel at Korean by end of 2010 with my cousin and maybe dear?! got to see my dear got money to join or not.lol. 5. cut down my fat, i did put on some weight after work in office. is time to eat less and do more excise. 6. wish all my friend 2010 New Year Resolutions come true..cheer~
anyway this new year i have learn to be happy, and i am really happy with what i having now. friend who i maybe less contact, work that is damn bored, money that is never enough. but without all this bad kind of feeling i wouldn't know what is happiness which is i at least got friends, i got work to do, i got income. now i see my glass of water is half full then half empty. below are some email i get from friend, maybe is them who make me want face my life in bright side. thanks friends, you all maybe dunno my problem and never say anyway thing to comfort me but your email are the energy to my life. maybe is just 无声胜有声..
有趣的事情在後頭呢！ 師父一聽完我跟他提到～個人煩惱的時候， 他索性要我左手提起～他剛買的三罐番茄汁， 一邊提著，一邊跟他說話。 可想而知，我左手感覺到疲勞的程度，跟時間成了正比。 也懊惱著為何師父要我一邊提著三罐蕃茄汁，一邊跟他說話。 受不了這樣的酸楚，我自行把左手放下， 卻聽到師父跟我說： 「 Hold it up, and keep talking to me. 」 聽到這樣的話，心理不免起了疑心， 我手提的那麼酸， 為何不讓我放下手上的重物，輕鬆地與他對談？ 約莫過了15分鐘，我的左手實在承受不住了， 才聽見師父跟我說：「Now you can put it down.」。 看著我狐疑的臉，師父居然笑了出來。 「你不喜歡提著重物跟我說話，為何你卻喜歡帶著煩惱，過著你的生活呢？ 手酸了，放下就好，對待煩惱，不也是這樣？ 或是這些煩惱，就像是那些番茄汁一樣， 是你自己用手把它們給舉起來的呢？」 有趣的經驗，對吧？ 最近我開始這樣的練習， 一手舉起有重量的東西，一邊想著事情。 手酸了，自然會放下手上的東西， 看看有一天，我會不會也學到，心累了，就把心事給放下來。 我們能很容易的放下有形的重物， 卻很難放下無形的重擔。 執著的人生～會讓自己承擔莫需有的重擔。 學習放下執著～也就在學習人生自在。
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♥ Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Recent Life
“金钱可以买床铺，但不能买睡眠。 可以买房屋，但不能买家庭。 可以买食物，但不能买食欲。 可以买娱乐，但不能买快乐。” “生活就是一面镜子， 你笑，它也笑； 你哭，它也哭。” 作家 W i l l i a m Makepeace Thackeray
Just find its meaningful.
12/12/2009 Saturdays
Normal dating with dear.
18/12/2009 Friday
Dating after work.
24 - 25 December 2009
X'Mas celebration with dear at town and caught Alvin and the chipmunks 2
- 5pm+ end work, go home get ready for the celebration - 9pm+ dear reach my house with the surprise gift of flower, thanks dear. - 10pm+ met up with other of dear friend and one of the colleague and stay around town area. - 11pm+ hanging area town for count down and play with the snow spray. - 1am+ down to plazza sing to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2, nice movie enjoy it. - 3am+ go down city area to wait for our 1st bus and get ourself some drink. - 6am+ finally go home sweet home.
26/12/2009
slacking at city area, do some shopping for my BBQ tents. sad to say the good tents sold out, but i buy a cheaper one.lol.
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